I believe my life will be easier if I can drive. but I also believe I am not meant to be down the road and sit in the driver position. I have very little sense of direction, meaning I get lost and get nervous easily.

okay. that’s out of the topic. I’m currently dealing with my faculty’s camp and it’s dragging me to hell. why? because they don’t trust me. and they don’t fully understand my situation. they keep giving certain tasks and entrusted me with some responsibilities, which I think, the goal is to test whether I’m capable or not. duh. ==;

now i”m alone at my campus, like an idiot, in a computer lab, alone. trying to check my GPA this semester. you know what? I have a C+! damn, I never saw that coming. I mean, I don’t think I did that bad to deserve a C. that lecturer really really really gets into my nerves. I only wish that I get an A for 1 particular subject to save my currently endangered GPA. AMEN! *fingercrossed

i remembered making that WP for TIK’s assignment that was a piece of cake. ;P

anyhow, keep it real!

but i’m not the only one living in the world of jonas brothers indonesia. there are plenty of similar fansites, though i can’t call them fansites, cause they basically just make a twitter accounts, blogs, or facebook pages and groups. they are all nothing, and i found this one facebook page that started this all. they named themselves jonas indonesia. with a logo of jb, but with an I not a B (get it?). they keep going on my way. the owners are suckers, they think they’re the best. they often talk bout me and the site i’m managing and things i do on twitter, behind my back, of course. they never really say something right on my face. at first i try to be fair, and let them do what they want. but they’ve come to an extend that I consider unforgivable.

they accused me of copying things they do on twitter, tumblr, facebook or what so ever. they didn’t say that to me, they just talked bout that sarcastically on their tweets. and i realized, cause i’m a human, i have feeling, i know when people don’t like me or talk bout me. i try to look back and think of something i might have copied from them, and found nothing. they said that i’m a thief, i stole their ideas. and i was like, come on! your ideas are never THAT great so no one would never ever able to think of thaT!!!

oh, and its fucking owner, a girl name biatch, read my blog, where i said some people stab me from the back. she tweeted “she said i stab her from the back. are we even friends?” i instantly thought, WHAT THE HELL? you never really understand english or even language, huh? do backstabbers always come from a friend? i never think of you as a friend, just a jonas fan i come across. she said she doesn’t like to be talked from behind, but she keeps doing it with her fella jonas friends. that makes me sick! really really SICK!!!

so i decided to fight her back. and let her win. okay, like, jonas brothers aren’t my everything. i love them, but if loving them causing me this great deal of a pain, what’s left for me? it’s not even worth the pain. i’m tired of everything jonas. but on the other hand, i know i have to finish what i’ve started. there’s no turning back. i still have no idea what i’ll do next, but for now, i’ll just continue doing what i’m doing normally. act like nothing happened. but if she started acting up again, i’ll kill her immediately. without any warnings. who cares bout her life. she’s a full time slut.

i wrote it here, because noone knows i have this wordpress, i deleted this link from my personal blog, so things i wrote here are so personal and so true. (:

Forever
Tears fall, vanish into the night
If I’m a sinner
Chivalry, show me the way to go

Rise, high, just feel alive
Say a prayer for you today
I still believe in your love
Trace the shadow of truth the dark

Forever
Tears fall, vanish into the night
If I’m a sinner
Chivalry, show me the way to go

Wandering my crying soul
Only you can wipe away my tears

Forever
Tears fall, vanish into the light

hmm.. not so much different from bs or lj. bur i guess, it’s a bit more complicated. ==;

will try to play with it next time. haha.

i’m handling too many blogs. some of them are abandoned.oh. mean.

urgh. feel kinda strange. and the title is HELLO WORLD! oh man.

like i’m a newborn baby. haha. XD

but well, i’ll leave it alone. xP